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Saturday, May 17, 2008
i feel like dying drowning in a world of stupidness in a world where you always lose. lose to everything. EVERYTHING. not getting what you desire, despite all the effort you have put in. losing everything feels sick. and make me feel like a loser. this is the world where dreams shatter into pieces where you feel like dying where everything that you have is taken away from you where you, practically lose. every move is important, it shows whether you survive. and i, unfortunately have taken a wrong move, and even though it is only like half of the road in my future destroyed it means the whole road destroyed to me. my future, gone. just because of this stupid silly mistake i did. i just don't get it. why does this always happen to me? no one recognises my effort put in.. let alone myself. why, why, WHY? did i do something wrong in my previous life? if yes i'd like to say sorry for what i did in my previous life. sorry to who i harmed. but why are you making me pay back like this? it's really very unfair. but as said, life is always unfair. but WHY? did someone say that? i know that effort is important, you know. effort holds the key in whatever u do. but i'm already trying my best!! really stupid. effort put in by others is really easy to see. but why not mine? i already did my best. i did what i could do. but why cant i just do it? why am i like this? just like the people who suffered in the twin tragedies they are mourning for their beloved, some even not found yet. effort put in by me that is not recognised to me, is just the same as that. but sometimes, people are like this. perhaps its just that i'm competing with the best in the whole level.. but sometimes its really disheartening. teachers despise me for not putting in effort. okay, everyone despises me. cus i'm just a good for nothing. just what did i do wrong in my previous life?? even though i'm not a christian, i still need to ask. God, is it because i didn't trust you well enough so you are doing this to me? or is it that i'm not a christian so you are doing this to me. its true that i believe in god, but just i don't pray. please help me. take this as a plea from a little girl in need. guide me along, please. very very very down can. I shall be anti from now on. |
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But baby, when they knock you down,
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